Now, as far as my situation is concerned: our common friend has lead to nothing. She’s no longer in touch with him, so yeah. Last week, I reconsidered my whole “I’d rather die than send an e-mail” rule. Not sure what triggered it, but it suddenly popped into my head that it might not be SUCH a bad idea after all. I wrote a draft and let it simmer for a few days, then showed one of my best friends who actually found it surprisingly good … it was short and casual. Just a simple hello and how are you doing type of thing.

But I don’t know. Still. E-mails are so easy to ignore. And I know he’s not really a computer person, so he could end up only checking his box in 6 months, and if it’s one of those stupid boxes that auto delete messages after 30 days, I’ll be left wondering forever and it will only drive me crazier not to know whether he purposely didn’t respond or what.

So then. I might give our geographical closeness a shot (is that even a word?). There’s a place right next to his work, where I used to have lunch on a regular basis in the past. I’m starting to think that picking up this old habit might push my luck a little. And physically bumping into someone generally has a bigger impact than a random text. I know that totally sounds stalkerish though. I feel like a creep for considering this, but it’s the best I can come up with right now … **sigh**

I had such a panicking thought yesterday: as I was staring at my little e-mail draft, I tried to imagine what kind of response I could end up getting. At first I imagined a quick “hey, nice to hear from you “, and then it slowly drifted to “Oh hey, I’m doing great! I’m about to get married!”, and then “Amazing! I just got married and I’ll soon be a dad”. I think I slightly hyperventilated for a minute. **shudders**

The “signs” have stopped, by the way. No more synchronicities since July. Hmm …