Hi Everyone,

It’s already 2 months later, and our relationship has been moving steadily. Everything feels positive and comfortable. We are opening up to each other more every day, and our public displays of affection have evolved the same.

Back to the synchronicity topic: all coincidences that seemed to be pointing at him prior to us dating have completely vanished. This will probably sound silly, but soon after they disappeared, I realized I was kind of missing them. Even though we were actually together at that point, which was basically my wish coming true. So I really couldn’t complain. But those little winks from fate were so unusual and quirky, it made life seem a bit more magical, so to speak. I went through this “dead” phase soon after we started dating, where I had no more coincidences whatsoever. Mind you, I was on cloud 9 as far as being with him was concerned! And I still am. So I’m not complaining.

That being said, another type of quirky coincidences has started showing up very recently. They’re coincidences about us both. Strange details we have in common. Similar facts and events we’ve both experienced. Identical tastes about certain things that we never knew we had in common. We have more than once met up for a date, accidentally wearing the exact same colors or pattern. We also noticed we were carrying the exact same handkerchief in our right pocket, made out of the exact same fabric with the exact same print, both being gifts from our parents several years ago. Little details like that, which make us giggle and note “this must be fate”.

So, his name popping up everywhere, as well as the other synchronicities I used to experience, have now been replaced by mutual coincidences that involve us both together, which are much more personal and strengthen our bond in the sweetest way. Life is so strange.

Along come certain fears though. Fears of loss, tragedy, death, accidents. Pretty somber thoughts, I know. But I can’t help but wonder why I would deserve all this, and whether I’ll be given lots more years of it, just like that, or if -as in most movies- happiness is always disturbed by an unfortunate event. An event revealing the actual lesson or challenge to accomplish. Hmm.

Or hey, maybe I just watch too much TV. I don’t know, I’ve had that feeling, or rather, that “fear” that something tragic is creeping around the corner for over a week now. Ah, the human mind. Will it ever just feel safe and content?

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(wink to Anna -I love that name by the way; so pretty-)

So, my last post was an interesting blend of confusion and frustration … it turned out well a few days later though! He called me on Friday, Feb 13th, to decide about which restaurant I’d like to go to on the 14th (still no mention of the actual word “Valentine”, which I was starting to find a bit amusing). I picked one of the three options he gave me, and he said he would call and make a reservation, since they were most likely going to be full on “that day” LOL The phone call was cute and uplifting, I felt positive again!

He showed up at my door on the 14th with a bunch of roses. I definitely wasn’t expecting that!! Call it cheesy, but I love flowers, and the most important to me was what they represented: he was basically confirming his feelings to me, and I knew right then that I could ditch all the doubts! I told him I had a surprise for him too, but that I’d give it to him later that night …

Then we went to the restaurant, which was lovely! And then we sort of decided to go to his place and have drinks and watch a movie. We watched it right against each other, but I could sense that he was getting all shy again and holding back. I wasn’t feeling it and realized it wasn’t going to happen there. It was already 4am and I needed some sleep anyway. So he drove me back home, escorted me to my door like he always does, I put the key in, and went: “oh, I still have to give you that surprise!” He smiled and blushed, I told him “close your eyes!”. He closed them. And I kissed him.

We ended up kissing and hugging for about 10 or 15 minutes on my front step lol It was pretty intense! The chemistry was out of this world, and oh my God, it was hard to let go, but I had to get in eventually, and his car was still running lol He was basically on cloud 9, and I guess we both looked like we were high on drugs or something, it was really intense.

So that’s about it for Valentine Mission accomplished!! I’ve been feeling all silly happy the whole day and I can’t wait to see him again on Wednesday!

Aaarrghh, thanks again you guys! It’s amazing to look back at my first few posts now LOL I guess the contrast will be even more bizarre in the next few months lol

Anyway, I hope you all had a lovely V-day. And if you didn’t spend it with anyone this year, then say to youself: next year better!